Alzheimers
I seen you and your memory of me was no
more.
So I just left and cried out the door.
Next time I seen you your body was no
more.
So I just left and cried out the door.
I hung your picture up on my wall knowing
you will not be there for me no more.
So I just cry on my floor .
Do you ever feel?
Do you ever feel your silence screaming
loudly?
Do you ever feel your heart beating out of
your chest?
Do you ever feel your mind take off without
you?
Do you ever feel yourself slip away?
LET ME SLEEP!
Slowly I see the sun go down, and I know
what's coming . As I sit at the foot of my
bed, I hold my head. I scream internally.
"LET ME SLEEP! ""LET ME SLEEP! ""LET ME
SLEEP! " I lie down and close my eyes,
trying to sleep. My mind won't let me, my
mind won't let me. I try my hardest to not
think of anything, but my mind continues
running around. I scream internally again
"LET ME SLEEP! ""LET ME SLEEP! ""LET ME
SLEEP! " But my mind won't let me
Panic attacks!
Panic attacks are like the wind.
You can't see the wind but you can surely
feel it.
Panic attacks are like a boomerang.
You throw it away thinking you're fine. But
it comes right back to you.
Panic attacks are like setting off a firework.
You know it's going to go off. But when it
does it scares you.
How am i?
How am I suppose to live.
If I don't know what to give?
How am I suppose to believe?
If I cannot achieve.
How am I suppose to try?
If all I do is cry.
How am I suppose to go?
If I don't even know.
How am I suppose to be glad?
If all I am is sad.
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Alexis Leos is 22 and works in a deli in Texas. She's had anxiety since she was 5, and since she was 18 she has struggled with depression. "Writing poetry and listening to music helps me so much."